但我想我該停一停，我也不想的，不過好像應該這樣罷了。

唔…她快樂就好了，我不要再活在自已的世界裡了。

打噴次的人，bless you.

Thank you for 19, so i recall of this, re dig this, and have some comfort tears.

While i always told her and ask her if she knows how much that my love is……

I have this song give me a smile; peacefully, i would hold her for that length of time.

Love is heavy, love is soul,love is jazz scale on piano, love is when a good voice recover a classic song.

This song is love.

To make you feel………….

“i’d go stupid i’d go stink and nude, i’d go crawling down the avenue, know there’s nothing that i wouldn’t do,TMYFML”(with the green marker highlights on)

I wanna tell you this,sweet heart.

想起那個做了兩年的工作，一直都唔明白，點解客人問我野，無論我講得幾肯定，卻總是不信我呢？同一個客同一樣問題，其他同事答得幾求其都會信佢地。是因為我個樣？是因為我唔夠高大？是因為我睇落散發住唔可信的氣息？係我講得太肯定？或者應該係咁易求其答…反而別人會珍惜點？

我會幫，幫得就幫，幫得就完全唔諗回報。間唔中都會有些客人好信得過我，指定要我幫佢，其實又唔太差。

不過每次諗起個堆唔信我的人，佢地可以好冇原因咁唔信我，就算講得幾有文路都唔信喎，我已經係最勤力個個，上堂測驗睇書，接受全部都係100%專業正確的訓練，每樣類型產品都要考過試、答中晒所有問題先可以過關…

但我都唔嬲佢地，可能真係我睇落去聽落去唔似講真話

講番出來，都係覺得呢件曾經令我好難過的事，用如果妳一樣有唔被人信的難過的話，我明。我明。妳自已做得對就好。

灰

夠鐘出門口時，想關了電腦前check下會唔會唔使番學（有種預感），因為同緊唔開心的佢傾計，唔捨得就咁走左去，不過已經熄左電腦。駕車時聽的，越聽越不快樂，看著時間一路過一路掛住佢…

番到學，頂！真係取消左堂。死下死下咁行去座低溫書，咳到死下死下，病到六神無主。

我堅強左由琴晚到家陣啦，比我傷心陣都得掛。

想妳。

開心到心情煩燥到好番又再唔好…

點會知呀？

唯有心裡面默默祈禱，希望快快雨過天清。

分手的，工作不順的，前路迷惘的…

都要頂架，係米？唔係…點會知呀？

生命係咁難架啦，仲時不時會有好多生活風平浪靜的人同妳講人生道理，我諗，每個人都有真心記掛自已的人，真心對自已好的人。

如果遇到呢種人既，都賺左一點啦，對不？

有默默講點知的人，又有口大大講點知姐的人。

他們在苦惱在傷心，我們在擔心，大家都要互相扶持。

真無奈。

真無奈。

又是灰著臉去過的一日。加油吧。

So um….i am talking about those songs……like how sth gone from so good to so bad, heaven to hell, hold you up and break your heart in pieces, give you candy and took it away, the sweetest words to meanest………..usually the same person in a short period of time and never can see it coming.

Ya,that kind of song.

Today was another day i thought of those song. I was’t mad at her you know, just sth happed and thought of a song,no direct connection.I still love her so much and so worry about her,only.

But hey, you know what i mean, you never ready for the same one you love who gave you sugar all over on your heart, and then next day she gone all mad because she’s in a bad mood. You always want her to be your sweet love, at least show you some respect, dun yell at me like that…cuz i don’t do that to you, why you do that to me?

Well,but you knew it is impossible, and she just so human try to be herself in front of you. Who you get mad at the most? Gotta be who was really close to you-Family. My mom so gave a very very wrong idea long ago…she said i can’t be rude to to her,becoz i wouldn’t be rude my frds or even a stranger, how can i be mean to someone loves me so much. But the point is you have to have some one who you truly can show your real feeling to,not pretending you are clam.

Plus, say how you really feel is good for you. Just don’t over do it now.

OK, so i didn’t blame her, she just need to chill out a bit, give her sometimes. Yet,i guess many of you feel me, girls are so unpredictable. I guess what man can do is be supportive, don’t be so depressed that only stress her out, tell her few jokes, take good care of yourself dun make her worry. Girls can went to sad from joy in a second, but go back to happy? It can take much longer than you think, so be patient and listen to her.

Well, i just text her, she didn’t reply, i guess she still don’t feel good. Who care about those songs now? She can totally be herself to me anytime, i love her, except her feeling, there is nth else matter.

Sigh……but i can’t deny i am still sad.

Whatever the type of music it’s, always sound good in acoustic like what people called unplugged .

My life is so acoustic too. I got some great ideas and sweet thoughts but never make it loud enough to show it off.

Acoustic takes skills too.

The feeling was getting deeper.

Just check on everything that i had, all the good i had.

Still something missing.

When you love someone who not sure love you the same,all you can do is not to promise untill one day she really say that love you.

And i will love you forever and ever.

The Letter,the gift,the memories.

I wake up,i drive,i take a shit,i talk to someone,i walk,i think of you.

Right now,i just love you so much,no need to set a time for myself for anything.

Once you get the dream,you still gotta work hard on that.

”you are what i dream of.”

Right now i am in the computer room of college , 1st day of my college.The class i just took was all about what do we wanna go for in the future ? Then it’s like turn the messy part of my brain on.

I still don’t know yet.A lot of faces and names so far,when will i recall it again?

Last night i finally did it , just happened so fast ,as if 10 years squeeze into one night .What i feel is i don’t want this to be a one night thing , feel it ?

Oh my, i think i am in love. Really in love.Tell me everything is gonna be good.I couldn’t take anymore hard feeling.Loving you is crazy enough.

This morning in the shower , the water drop down till all over me . Do i still remember what i am thinking at that moment?

If everything have a season. Please don’t put ” I love you ” in one of them.

Summer , i was in Hong Kong , i was in Home, i was in Florida , i was in Love.

For the part i get though to myself i keep in heart,no need to say it more.

For she found someone really in rhyme,someone is really good for her.Somehow is happend,amazingly,and i am thankful for this.So true i never think i could get along with part of her or enjoy what she’ve said and sing,so why am i want to be with her so bad for? She’s not my type,never is.

I am just jealous,the same old damn me.Have to find out how to be fix.

For everything i’ve learnt,i aslo keep in heart,keep in mind.

For the bad feeling still in me,i m going to a trip to let it out.

Always is how to let it go,put it down,let it out,forgive yourself and admit that you love.

Oh,another thing,got Jason Mraz ticket today,should be good new start.